So Not Ready

Me.  I am so not ready.  We are taking middle son up to college to begin his freshman year this weekend. So much focus has been on so many other things, I haven't had time for it to sink in - that he's actually going.

Oh, I'd planned things so differently way back when.  I never wanted to be one of those mothers who bemoans her children leaving the nest. 

Woman plans, God laughs.

Sigh.

The one who is most like me.  The one with whom I can sit for hours in companionable silence.  The only one in the house with the same temperament as mine (Quiet introverts requiring time to ourselves to regenerate after socializing). We understand that about one another.  We laugh at "the others." They who need to talk.  Ha.  Not for us talking.  We communicate via thought waves.

And he was such an amazing pleasure to raise.  (Until his teens, when they all go a bit haywire.  His version of haywire wasn't so bad though.) He DID HIS HOMEWORK WITHOUT ANY PROMPTING!  He'd remind me to sign papers that had to be brought back to school. He didn't lose things! He loved naptime.  He never fussed about anything - always easy going.  Never demanding. Great sense of humor.

There was only one thing, one thing alone, about which he was ever irrational in all hos 18 years.  When he was little, he used to like eating pop tarts for breakfast.

GOD FORBID THE CORNER OF THE POP TART BE BROKEN OFF.

Strangely enough, it was one of the only things that made him cry. 

And of course, we've ribbed him about it mercilessly. 

And he's taken it with good humor like the mensch that he is.

Saying goodby is going to be very hard.

Of course, they do come back.  Eldest son is still living at home at age 23.  And Daughter came back. : )

But I have a funny feeling, this bird is going to be the one to fly off the soonest.  He walked at ten months. He always got himself up and off to school on time.

He's ready.  It's just his mother who's lagging behind.

Comments

[Mark]

We never really leave...

Hugs, Gail.

[soccerdad]

Maybe you're ready for this ...
guess what? You've been tagged.
Sorry.

[The Hermit]

My son and daughter left last December, and they both went to Canada, about as far away as you can get from home and still be on this continent. I miss them a lot. My wife has flown out there twice, but I have to stay home to take care of the animals and the place. It costs a lot of money with two of them in school at once out of the country, but it was what they really wanted to do.